Section I: What Are My Problems?

      This first section contains two tests. (1) the Alcohol and Drug Addiction Test and (2) the Offender
      Personality Self-Test. Completing each test will help you to understand yourself better and begin to change.
      Alcohol and Drug Addiction Test.

      Purpose.
      This test describes things that happen to people who are addicted to alcohol or drugs. By taking this test,
      you will be able to determine if you are addicted and, if so, how serious your addiction is. To be addicted
      means that you cannot stop using alcohol or drugs without help. This test was adopted from the Jellinek
      Chart for Addiction. The following problems do not happen to people who are not addicted.

      Instructions.
      Read each question and think back over your life. If this has ever happened to you, make a check mark in the
      left column (yes). If this has never happened to you, make a check mark in the right column (no). When you
      are finished, see the scoring sheet at the end of the test.

Yes        No

____         ____         1.
Use to feel better: I use alcohol or drugs to get away from things that bother me or are
                                    hard to face.

____        ____         2.
Use to solve most problems: I use alcohol or drugs to try to solve most of my problems
                                   and things that bother me.

____         ____        3.
It takes more: It takes more or stronger kinds of alcohol or drugs to get the same feelings
                                   than it used to.

____        ____         4.
Memory loss: Sometimes after I have been using, I do not remember what happened.

____        ____         5.
Sneaking: Sometimes I hide from other people how much I'm using or drinking. This
                                   might be because I do not want people to know or because I do not want to share.

____         ____        6.
Dependence: I rarely do anything for fun unless I use alcohol or drugs.

____        ____         7.
Fast start: I use stronger alcohol or drugs or use a lot quickly at first to get a "good start."

____         ____        8.
Feel guilty: I feel guilty about using alcohol or drugs or about the things that I do when I use.

____        ____        9.
Do not listen: Other people complain or try to talk to me about my using but I do not listen.

____        ____        10.
Regular blackouts: I do not remember what happened and I get into trouble when I use
                                    alcohol or drugs.

____        ____        11.
Excuses: I use problems in my life as an excuse for using alcohol or drugs. I feel that I
                                    have to use to deal with these problems.

____        ____        12.
Using more than others: I use more than most people, so I hang around people who use
                                    as much or more so that I feel that I fit in.

____        ____        13.
Feel bad: I feel bad about how my using hurts other people, but I don't know what to do
                                    about it.

____        ____        14.
Show off: I show off or get pushy with other people to feel better and prove that I am okay.

____        ____        15.
Promises: I promise to get my life in order and do better. I mean it, but it doesn't work out
                                    that way.

____        ____        16.
Control: I try to control my use, but it doesn't work.

____        ____        17.
Give up other things: I've stopped doing things that I used to do that didn't involve using
                                    alcohol or drugs.

____        ____        18.
Make changes: I change jobs, move, or leave a relationship to try to make my life better,
                                    but it doesn't make any difference.

____        ____        19.
Work and money troubles: I have problems on the job, owe money or can't work at all
                                    because of my using.

____        ____        20.
Avoid friends and family: I avoid old friends and family that do not use—unless I need
                                    something from them.

____        ____        21.
Neglect food: I do not eat healthy foods or eat at regular times, especially when I'm using.

____        ____        22.
Resentment: I feel like other people are out to get me, and I feel angry a lot.

____        ____        23.
Withdrawal: I need a drink or a drug in the morning or else I get the shakes or sweats
                                    because I feel terrible.

____        ____        24.
Can't make decisions: I can't make decisions about even small things. I just wait until
                                    things happen.

____        ____        25.
Health problems: I am sick, have lost a lot of weight, or feel physically bad most of the time.

____        ____        26.
Decrease in amount to get high: It takes less for me to get high or doesn't matter how
                                    much I use because I can't get the effect I want.

____        ____        27.
Over the line: I do things I said I would never do or things that do not reflect the way I was
                                    raised.

____        ____        28.
Use all the time: I use whenever I can, and I don't try to have a normal life.

____        ____        29.
Find someone worse: I try to use with people who are worse off than I am so that I feel
                                    better.

____        ____        30.
Major damage: Even when I'm not using, I have a hard time thinking, remembering,and
                                    doing things that used to be easy.

____        ____        31.
Afraid: I feel like something terrible might happen to me, people are out to get me, and I
                                    have to be on guard at all times.

____        ____        32.
Give up: I don't try to change anything. I just wait to see what happens.


____        ____        33.
Using is everything: Getting something to use, using, and getting over using are my
                                   whole life.

____        ____        34.
Turn to God: I want God or religion to save me from my life.

____        ____        35.
I'm lost: I don't try to pretend my life is normal. I know I am an addict or an alcoholic. I
                                    believe that things will never change.

____        ____        36.
Desperation: I am willing to do anything to get better.

____        ____        37.
Confinement: I have been in jails and mental wards because of my using.


       Scoring Sheet for Alcohol and Drug Addiction Test     

      Early Stage Addiction

      Count up the number of yes answers you checked in questions 1–12 and write the number below.

      Number of checks for questions 1–12 _____

      If you have one or more checks in this section, there is a possibility that you are addicted to alcohol or drugs.
      This means that you use alcohol or drugs to try to solve problems and to make yourself feel better. While using
      alcohol or drugs will not really make things better, it will feel like it does. If you have any checks in this section, you
      have a possibility of becoming addicted if you keep using. The closer your score is to 12, the higher your chance
      of addiction.

      Middle Stage Addiction

      Count up the number of yes answers you checked in questions 13–24 and write the number below.

      Number of checks for questions 13–24 ____

      Any number of checks in this section means that you are addicted and have started to have bad things
      happen to you because of your addiction. During this stage, you may try to do things to control your addiction.
      Some of these may work for a while, but not for long. For questions 13–24, the closer your score is to 12, the
      more addicted you are, and the worse things will get if you do not get help.

      Late Stage Addiction

      Count up the number of yes answers you checked in questions 25–37 and write the number below.

      Number of checks for questions 25–37 ____

      Any number of checks in this section means that you are in the late stage of addiction. During this stage, you
      may have given up and thought that you could not do anything to change. Serious life problems, such as
       being sick, or going to jail or a mental ward, have happened or will happen to you if you do not try to get
      help. For questions 25–37, the closer your score is to 13, the more addicted you are. Your chances of dying
      are high if you continue to use.

      Reactions: Complete the sentences below and think about what they mean for your recovery.

      1. How do you feel about the results of the test you just took?

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      2. What do you think about the results of the test you just took?

____________________________________________________________________________________________

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      3. What do you want to do about the results of the test you just took?

____________________________________________________________________________________________

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      It is normal to feel angry or upset about the results of this test. Some people think, "This doesn't mean
      anything," and try to ignore the results. This is called denial. Alcoholics and addicts usually deny that they
      are dependent on alcohol or drugs because they can't think about how to live without drinking or using. You
      can give up here and repeat the past, or you can decide to change.

      Complete the following sentences.

      If I do not stop using, I will probably

____________________________________________________________________________________________

____________________________________________________________________________________________

      If I do stop using, I might be able to
____________________________________________________________________________________________

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      Offender Personality Self-Test

      Purpose.
      This test is to determine whether you are similar to other people who commit crimes. People who commit
      crimes behave in certain ways. These behaviors show how these people have learned to think. Although
      you may not like to think of yourself as having an offender personality, it is important for you to find out if
      you do. The problems that your thinking and behaviors cause with the law can help you see that you need
      to change. (Adapted from DSM¬III¬R criteria.)

      Instructions.
      Read the following descriptions and check the left column (yes) if this has happened to you or if you have done
      this and the right column (no) if this has not happened to you or you have not done this. Read the scoring
      instructions at the end of this test to find your results.

      Part 1: Before Age 15

Yes        No        

____        ____        1.
Skipped school: I often skipped school because I didn't want to be there or because I wanted
                                  to do other things.  

____        ____        2.
Ran away: I ran away from home or from where I lived at least two times, overnight.

____        ____        3.
Fights: I started physical fights with others more than once.

____        ____        4.
Weapons: I used a gun, knife, club, chain, or other weapon in more than one fight.

____        ____        5.
Sex: I forced someone into sex or sexual activity.

____        ____        6.
Cruelty to animals: Sometimes I was cruel to or hurt animals.

____        ____        7.
Cruelty to people: I physically hurt other people sometimes.

____        ____        8.
Property damage: I destroyed or damaged other people's property on purpose.

____        ____        9.
Fires: I set fires on purpose.

____        ____        10.
Lying: I often lied to other people.

____        ____        11.
Theft: I took things that didn't belong to me, forged checks, or broke into places to steal more
                                    than once.

____        ____        12.
Robbery: I forced people to give me things that belonged to them.

____        ____        Total in each column for questions 1–12.

      Scoring:
      Add up the check marks in the yes column for questions 1–12 and put the number in the space above. Do the
      same for the no column. If you have three or more yes answers, you act and think similarly to people who
      commit crimes. This behavior usually starts very early in life. This means you will have to work hard to change
      the way you think and act.

      Part 2: Since Age 15

Yes        No        
____        ____        13.
Work problems: I haven't worked when work was available, have skipped work or classes
                                      because I wanted to, or have quit several jobs or schools without any plans for the future.

____        ____        14.
Illegal activities: I have committed crimes or done illegal things that I could have been
                                    arrested for.

____        ____        15.
Using violence: I have had many physical fights or have beaten up my spouse, lover, or
                                    children.

____        ____        16.
Avoid money responsibilities: I have failed to pay bills or child support, or I have failed         
                                    to take care of my family.

____        ____        17
. Moving around: I have moved without having a job, drifted from place to place, or have lived
                                    without a home for more than a month at a time.

____        ____        18.
Conning: I have lied, used false names, or conned people to get what I want.

____        ____        19.
Reckless: I have driven a car recklessly while using or drinking or have acted in ways that
                                    caused danger to others.

____        ____        20.
Parenting: I have failed to take care of my children by leaving them alone, not feeding
                                    them, or depending on others to take care of them for me.  

____        ____        21.
Relationships: I have never been able to stay faithful to a sexual partner for more than
                                   1 year.

____        ____        22.
Remorse: I do not feel bad most of the time when I steal from, hurt, or treat someone else
                                    badly.

____        ____        Total in column for questions 13–22.

      Scoring:
      
Add up the check marks in the yes column for questions 13–22 and put the number in the space above. Do
      the same for the no column. If you have four or more yes answers, it means you act and think similarly to other        
      people who commit crimes. If you did not have three or more yes answers on the section before age 15, it may
      mean that your offender behavior is completely connected to your alcohol and drug use. One way to make
      sure is to review your yes answers on questions 13–22 and ask yourself if these things always happened when
      you were trying to get alcohol or drugs, using alcohol or drugs, or because you had been using alcohol or
      drugs recently. If alcohol and drugs were not part of why you did these things, ask yourself what happened or
      changed in your life that made you start doing them.

      Reactions:
      Complete the sentences below and think about what they mean in your recovery.

      1. How do you feel about the results of the test you just took?

___________________________________________________________________________________________

___________________________________________________________________________________________

      2. What do you think about the results of the test you just took?

___________________________________________________________________________________________

___________________________________________________________________________________________

      3. What do you want to do about the results of the test you just took?

___________________________________________________________________________________________

___________________________________________________________________________________________

      It is normal to feel angry or upset about the results of this test. Some people think, "This doesn't mean anything,"
      and try to ignore the results. Part of what causes people to continue to get into trouble with the law is that they
      ignore things that they do not want to hear. This is called denial. You can quit here and repeat the past, or you
      can decide to change by continuing to work in this workbook. In order to change, you must accept who you are
      now.

      Complete the following sentences.

      If I do not change the way I think, I will probably

__________________________________________________________________________________________

__________________________________________________________________________________________

__________________________________________________________________________________________

      If I do change the way I think, I might be able to

__________________________________________________________________________________________

__________________________________________________________________________________________

__________________________________________________________________________________________


      The Offender Personality Self-Test and the Alcohol and Drug Addiction Test will help you understand
      what you must change as you complete this workbook. You will need to change in order to avoid having
      problems with the law. The remainder of this workbook will show you how to do this.   














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